identity crisis.

Hi guys, I'm sorry I haven't posted in quite a while.. I haven't had much motivation to do much things. I am so sorry!

So  I've been going through a identity crisis for quite some time now  and it's been getting worse,  I feel like becoming a whole different person, I have the sudden urge to change my appearance, changing how I talk, my typing style, my mindset, everything.  I feel like this body I'm in, isn't mines.. Every time I see myself in pictures or in the mirror I look nothing like I imagine myself to look like, I feel like I'm in a stranger's body, this body is not is not mine, this body belongs to someone and that someone is    definitely not me and will never be. I just want to disappear.

Daily Post #2

Hi guys. Firstly, I'd like to apologize. Sorry I haven't posted daily so many things are just going on, sorry!

 So lately I've been feeling pretty lonely. I've been trying to make friends but it's very hard. I've tried everything but nothing works... But I found 2 new friends. I'm hoping we can last for a little while. I haven't really had social interaction ever since schools closed for summer. I miss hanging out with my group of friends but unfortunately, due to drama, the group broke apart. I miss hanging out with all of them together at once, we even made plans about moving in together but I know for a fact that's never gonna happen. Ever since the group broke apart I haven't really been talking to them. Something I noticed is that I have to start the conversation if I don't they forget about me completely, I'm always being left out, but I'm used to it. But for some reason these last few days I've been talking to one of my friends more. But other than that I really haven't been talking to people much but I friended a few people on discord and joined a server. I'm now currently talking to this person they don't really consider me a friend I don't blame him, we did just start talking after all. I also made this other friend on this server but they really haven't said anything yet. I also made another friend and I think she's pretty cool.  Other than that I'm honestly not sure what to say! Anyways, Bye guys thanks for tuning in to today's blog!

 Hello people of the Earth and maybe even Mars! I'm so sorry I haven't posted in a few days. I haven't had much motivation or ideas but I'm back! 

These past few days I've been sick and so much has been going on. For some reason I had this friend named Ve but they just suddenly blocked me and unfriended me for no reason at all... I am still not sure to this day why they blocked me and if your reading this.. Why'd you block me without an explanation, I am actually very confused. Everything was going great but you still decided to block me? But anyways enough about them, lets move on to todays topic.

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So lately I have been learning Japanese. I'm hoping to learn it by the end of 2022! I will try my best to try to update you guys on my journey! Someone inspired me to start learning and here I am now. So far I only know a few phrases I can't actually hold a conversation but I'll try to learn more~  

Anyways, that's all for now! Bye guys!

Daily Post #1 - Random Thoughts

 Hello! It's me Cherry! How is everybody doing? I have a question before I begin to ramble lol. So what do you guys wanna see on my blog?  I don't really know what to post and I want your guys opinion.. And I'll try to post daily!

I made a little random thoughts list, enjoy!

1. Is it just me or is time moving slow slow but at the same time is it moving faster?

2. What happens after you die? Is there an afterlife? Is there Heaven and Hell?

3. How come strawberries aren't considered berries but bananas are..

4. Why the hell does school exist other than pain omg. 

That's all I can think of for now! Thanks for tuning in today's blog, I appreciate you!

Rant and Vent #1

Rant & Vent #1

Hello friends! I hope you are having a good/day/night whatever it might be. Right now I'm not really sure how to feel. I feel tired but at the same time I do not wanna sleep, I rather stay awake, I'm also very sad for some reason, I feel like crying for no reason... I feel numb, I'm not sure how to think or feel right now. I feel droopy. I feel like that's the only way to describe it, droopy. I have to continue a very big test tomorrow that I don't want to do at all. I feel like crying aaahhhhhh, I don't know what to do with myself ｡ﾟ(*´□`)ﾟ｡  cherry feels horrible. CHERRY IS SOOO BORED OMGOGMGOGMG.  I'm sorry this blog was short, I just felt like ranting thanks for listening, I appreciate you ( ｡>﹏<｡) 

Cherry's Introduction

Hello! Welcome to my blog I am Cherry!, This blog was inspired by my amazing friend Ve! make sure to check out their blog as well! Ve's Blog!!  I am a transgender male that loves very cute things like gyaru, cats, bunnies, etc. I also like kpop, jpop and so on!! I use he/him pronouns and neopronouns too, and did I mention I'm a Pinterest and tumblr addict?? In my free time I love hanging around with my friends, listening to music, watching anime, scroll on Pinterest and tumblr, & look into fashion. I love fashion in general and especially jfashion like gyaru, Lolita, decora kei, fairy kei. I’m 
 
 I've watched animes like.. demon slayer, erased, violet evergarden, my neighbor is totoro, howl's moving castle, spirited away, the promised neverland, ouran highschool host club, a slient voice, anohana, death note. I've started watching jjba. I watch shows like shameless, icarly, my little pony, etc. basically just childhood shows that make me happy. 

 

I listen to artists like, Melanie Martinez,  TWICE, MAMAMOO, Itzy, Blackpink, BTS, lamp, kyary pamyu pamyu, red velvet, HyunA, LOONA, BABYMETAL, hatsune miku, joe hisashi, etc.